My mom lost her balance in a golf tournament in late June. Six weeks later Glioblastoma Multiforme took her life. I had no idea brain cancer, or any other kind of cancer could move so quickly. Losing my mom has been the most difficult time of my life.
I’ve learned quickly that nobody has the right words, except a few friends that have weathered a similar storm themselves. My mom was always here with me in the background and now she’s not. It’s like a cord has been cut and all of a sudden I’m here on earth without my oxygen tank, my support, my nurturer. As time goes by I know I will feel differently, maybe the pain will change or go away. Maybe I will be able to smile more and not feel this ache in my belly. Life will never be the same but I know at some point I will feel joy again.
Because I have no experience with grief I have turned to friends for advice. So far a few trusted friends have told me to visit refuge in grief. I plan to do their grief writing course and have already found some small comfort in their support community.
I hope one day to be able to offer more to those also facing a similar tragedy but for now this is my recommendation if you also find yourself losing someone you love.
Sending love and peace.